Vulnerable Q

I have been slacking on my blog lately but these past couple of weeks have just been a world wind for me and now i can honestly say that at this point in time im really a lost soul. I dont know what to do with anything anymore. I shaved my hair again because I actually feel like me. I feel so lost i HATE feeling lost. I just want to run away and escape. I have a horrible job my only support is my grandma. I actually trust no one in this world but her. I just wish shit wouldnt get so complicated but then that's just wishful thinking because what is life without complications.