invisible.

Sometimes you make me feel so invisible like I dont exsist to you. I could be sitting right there and you act like ther's no one around. I always ask myself why but i really should be me asking you Wtf is wrong with you.. Im here. Im down for you and you dont seem to apprieciate that. Here I go again with feeling unapprieciated. Ino I say it alot but that's how I feel you dont make me feel no other way, When we do speak it's always something smart or negative to say never nice. We both know somewhere down the line something went wrong I tried making the effort to making it work and you shot that down. Idk where to go from here, im burnt out; where did the passion go, Why did it leave? Are we not allowing it to come back or are we just over it. I wonder that alot lately. I wonder and wish all the time and maybe that's what's wrong. There's so much wishful thinking a girl can do. It doesnt take one to work. It NEEDS two. Do we really give our all when we say we are going to? Or is it just a plea bargian when we are scared to face the truth.. One of my favorite songs right now is Cold Case Love by Rihanna and one part speaks to me the most.

"We lost our way; took this too far. Now i`ll never find the pieces of my heart. We lost enough looking for a truth... That was here all along."

 that part always seems to make me cry somehow. It's clear to see we lost our way. Did we take this relationship to far?  Is the truth we were searching for that we are over and we just cant simply fix anything anymore. Its became so confusing to me that i cant wrap my head around it anymore. Guys dont realize how much power they hold in a relationship. What they think is simple or not serious could mean the world to us. By talking to a girl especially if you dont have the best relationship that can break a girl. It makes us feel inadequete like where not good enough for you. That can bring someone's self esteem down. & dont think just because you are with us that makes everything ok. NO it does not. Just because you are with us physically dont mean you want us to be together emotionally. Its not about being jealous or anything there's so much more to that & we just wish you guys would understand. I wonder will you ever understand. When will enough be enough. When will i stop feeling like this. When will i stop feeling invisible around you..