what if's

Right now at this point of my life i have so many things going on. The person that I would normally talk to isn't really in my life anymore. Makes me feel like I'm a burden to him. No girl wants to feel that way. Sometimes I just cry & cry & cry wishing that this was a dream & I would wake up one day. Then everyday I wake up things are still the same. No matter how much I want them to change they don't. There are bigger problems that have to be dealt with & they are being pushed to the side. The bigger picture is more important right now. Petty fights don't mean a thing to me especially if they can be worked out in a conversation or two. Sometimes I wish you saw things the same way I did. Or I could see them how you do. Maybe we would be in a different place with our relationship... Who knows. All i know is that there are bigger & more important things that need to be talked about & none of that is happening. I just honestly don't know anymore.