what's love?

So im tryna take this breakup day by day. so far not doing to well

Im a pretty girl i got to college i have a good job im tryna make a difference in this world and why cant i seem to be happy why cant i find a guy who can handle me whats up with that im faithful and everything but he thinks im a cheater i don't pay attention but i pay close attention I've had my heartbroken before i thought but its nothing like this cuz i can honestly say i still love him hes my heart he treated me soo wrong but i just wish everything was all so right especially right now... idk what went wrong like every time he would breakup with me for nothing at all but it was so big to him i took it like a solider but no he cant do that for me...tisk! tisk! tisk!

but now i gotta worry about me and my heart and healing myself because there's no point in tryna and begging someone when there so called unhappy with you they are happy when u buy them gifts or have sex with them but other than that there are unhappy what kind of love is that?

this is how i feel right now...i told myself i would make some changes..but the more i changed theres one thing that remains the same.. i cant seem to shake ya you seem to really have a hold on me and every time time that breakup we turn around and makeup..this cant go on now, i gotta move on now its not the fact that i don't love you no more... but i gotta break this bad habit... i cant take this bad habit no more.....